2016 So far...

Man oh man I've been busy so far this year.

Merry Christmas and Happy New year to everyone lol. I'm finally buckling down and writing a post after months of not posting anything mainly because there's a lot happening in my life recently.

On Sunday Steve and I are flying to Hawaii again lol... I think my last post was about Hawaii LOL. Oddly enough I get the keys to my new place on Sunday too! Right before we leave! and FML I'm sick right now, I have no idea how I got sick but it sucks knowing that I'm going on vacation in less than a week and I'm sick T_T hopefully I'll be A-OK by sunday.

Yep finally moving out of the parents house. My mom has been freaking out recently like A LOT, over money. She's been going to the casino a lot and she's been harassing the shit out of my dad for money in a overly aggressive way that's pretty much abusive. I yelled at her for doing that and she freaked out at me and I said to myself fuck this place I'm out of here.  My dad can deal with that shit, he's enabling her which is encouraging her abusive behaviour.

Funnily enough, the day before, I emailed a guy about viewing the apartment and went to go see it (only because it was a good deal, I wasn't actually serious about renting his place but as fate would have it, it was meant to be) and its actually not bad for the price point and location, which ironically is literally right around the corner from Steve's place lol! The building the apartment is in is quite old but its not bad.

The shitty thing about moving out is that I have no furniture. Well.... I have my desk (which I kind of don't want LOL), a shelf and a TV but I'm not taking the bed I'm currently sleeping on. I bought a bed frame the other day which was a great deal. Steve got upset because when he moved his mom went out and bought like $5000 worth of furniture at some store that was a block away from the place I went to where she could've went to the place I went to and spent half of that plus he said the quality was basically the same lol.

I just need to buy a mattress now, which we're going to go do tomorrow. The sofa can come later as well as the dining room set. I just need the basics at this point and I can sort out the other things later :) other than that I'm actually pretty excited!

I was scared at first because I've never really rented a place and lived alone before but I haven't regretted the decision yet... not until I realize how poor I'm going to be! LOL

Oh and I haven't told my parents about moving out yet either. I have a feeling my dad is going to be upset because he'll have to live with my mom alone and my mom will be confused and get pissed off lol. But both will be like "you're stupid, its too expensive to live on your own" something along those lines.

I think I posted a while back that I'm working as a casual at the hospital but! That might change! I'm applying for a position hopefully I'll get it! :)

September Updates

So... I started school last month, which is a huge reason why I've been neglecting this blog >.<

I started school at a private college (which is a reason why I started in August) and nearly didn't get in, the program I'm in is a 6 month program to be a medical laboratory assistant.

I chose to stop my other schooling because well, it was just taking WAY too long and I just can't stand being at home any more. I seriously think that if I stay here for another 3 years I will commit suicide and honestly this is a great stepping stone into something else if I choose to upgrade later on.

So far the school is great, I've made lots of friends and I found out that I'm the weirdo of the class LOL. This month though is probably gonna be one of the toughest months for the program, we're learning lots of medical terminology and anatomy and physiology (which we haven't started yet) and basically there's a test every day so my brain is fried at the moment lol.

So there goes the summer lol.

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I had a discussion with Steve about the future and I told him that I will most likely abandon my parents, probably right after I get a job, hopefully after this program.

I feel like our relationship is beyond rebuild/repair, only because they're not willing to admit the mistakes they made and continue to make and them believing that everyone else is the problem besides themselves.

I told him that I do worry about if/or when the time came when we got married or had kids and I honestly don't want them to be a part of it. I'd worry about my mom causing a scene at my wedding and her spreading lies to Steve's family (like she tried to in the past) or call me a slut while I'm walking down the aisle in Vietnamese so she can snicker with her friends, like at Ashley's wedding.

Or if we had kids I would not want either of my parents to be around them. I can't trust my mom around any kids, she has no sense of right or wrong, even when she drives she almost hits people with the car and she blames them for "getting too close." It's just not happening with my kids, I'm not willing to take the risk and Steve understands (or so he says lol) I know his mom is not going to understand, she can't understand that kids can hate their parents.

My parents can't understand that either, both my parents and Steve's mom share the same mentality about it. Basically (I'm sure I've said this somewhere in a previous post) they believe that Money=Love the more you spend the more you love your kids, it doesn't matter if you're abusive or neglectful, in their eyes they think they're great parents, and sadly its something my parents and Steve's mom share.

I don't hate my entire family, just my parents, they're just not supportive or anything. I see how successful our cousins are and its because their parents actually tried to help them be successful in the future.

(had a tough morning lol its why I'm about them)

So that's that, moving on.

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I'm hoping to make at least 1 post per weekend, I have tons of stuff to talk about and share but SCHOOL! lol. I have an exam on Monday but I gotta get some motivation to post stuff lol or at least pre-write some posts so I can just update this blog lol.

If you're wondering what's happening with Steve and his crazy family, That needs its own post LOL. Honestly there's a lot of weird shit and a lot of shit to talk about lol.

So again, so sorry about the neglect!

I'm also thinking of renaming this blog, only because I kinda feel like Style Pop is kind of irrelevant to what I'm doing now lol, maybe I'll just move over to a new blog :)

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Over It

As most of you know, I love to bitch about my shitty parents.

I've really just had enough, they don't listen to reason and think they're the greatest thing ever and just put me down all the fucking time and I'm just done and over it.

I had the mentality of "when my parents get old I'll take care of them because they paid for my education and stuff" but FUCK THAT, they really think they can treat their kids like pieces of shit and then get rewarded for it when they get old just because they paid for education (only college nothing else).

They gave us NO LIFE SKILLS WHATSOEVER they just thought the government and the schools will handle it all. We don't know how to swim, ride a bike, drive a car or anything! I learned how to fucking cook in grade 11! Through a cooking program my school offered. At least Steve's shitty parents gave all of that to them but not our parents, I'm fucking learning how to drive like 10 years after Steve got his license.

Then my mom goes on to say "all of your cousins are better than you because they know how to do drive and do all these things and YOU DON'T" I'm like WTF, MAYBE ITS BECAUSE THEIR PARENTS LOVED THEM AND WANTED THEM TO SUCCEED IN LIFE. Seriously any time my mom had the funds to put us in a extra curricular class or program or anything that can help us boost our education or life skills she'd spend it all at the casino and my piece of shit dad didn't care he was just like "well as long as I'm feeding you, you'll be successful" What an idiot.

I feel so robbed out of my childhood and my life, all of my friends have supportive parents who pushed them into great careers and its given them great life skills and their parents supported them throughout their school careers and work lives and mine are just fucking crazy and abusive (mentally).

They're going to get the consequences of treating people like shit, their ultimate karma, loneliness but I guess they still have each other until one of them dies, I really will not ever forgive them for doing these things to me and Ashley, why should I? They''ll think they're right still because "they had us." I guess its the Asian mentality of "I had you so I'm right and you're wrong because I'm older than you" that bullshit.

I've wished death on my parents for many many years and now I just hope that it comes before I finish school so I can at least have some peace of mind instead of being a hermit at home and not talk to anyone that comes in the house.

I'm just going to try my best to graduate and get my ass out of this house for good and never see them ever again. My cousins, aunts, uncles can guilt trip me all they want about how I should take care of them because they "took care" of me and my sister but fuck that.

I am not rewarding abusers and nobody ever should if their parents treat them like shit.

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100th Post!

Woohooo! This is my 100th Post!

How do I want to commemorate this? By bitching out!

STUPID SCHOOOOOL!

So the school sent me an email telling me that I can register for my program classes at noon on the 27th of June. I logged in at 11:45AM to see if I can access it and it locked me out saying to come back later, So I was like ok I guess I'll have to come back at noon. I come in at 12 on the dot and ALL THE CLASSES ARE FULL. So I'm fucking waitlisted! I'm like WHAT THE FUUUCK?!!?!??!

Here's the problem with this schools registration program: They will let anyone register for anything as long as you meet the prerequisites.

So technically I don't even have to take Kinesiology classes I can take Nutrition classes or business classes. What I should have done was to register for something totally random and then have an earlier registration time then take the classes I want like really WHAT THE HELL!? Why let someone registered for something else take someone elses seat in the class they want?! I'm literally like position 50 in almost all the classes I signed up for and I only get offered a seat when my position is at 0, so basically there are 50 people ahead of me for one fucking class.

On top of that there are some pre-reqs I don't have for certain classes and if I take this one test I won't have to do a certain course which is like $90.

I go ask my dad for $90 and he's like "no, go ask Steve" its like really? FUCK YOU. He's always said "oh I'll pay for your school so you don't have to worry" and then I ask him for fucking $90 and he says no... and he looked at me like I just killed his family.

Well like what the fuck am I going to do when September drops if I can't get into the courses I want? almost everything is full >.< and fuck that I don't want to work.

Rant over lol.

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Second Rant Begins.

So we got a new renter who seems like a really nice girl from the UK so she has like no furniture or anything. So She just asked if it was possible to get a bigger bed so I was like that shouldn't be a big deal we have tons upstairs and they're not all being used. So today me and Steve decide to move the bed and my parents FREAKED THE FUCK OUT. They're like "NO! THAT'S OUR BED! WE NEED IT!" Really? You don't even use that bed and nobody ever wants to stay here.

Basically what they mean is give them the shittiest furniture and other used goods because they can't afford to have their own house -___-' like seriously wtf why even rent, not only that this house is FULL of garbage, if I could afford to pay people to come here and throw out all the useless unnecessary furniture and other garbage I would but I can't cause I'm poor lol.

So then they went on a rampage saying that I'm: a bad daughter, lazy, useless, stupid, mentally disabled, etc.. my mom then asks Steve's mom to make some tea and my mom says to her "I look at her face and her mind and she's no good" I'm like are you fucking kidding? Who says that about their own kid?

I hope to god that she fucking dies soon my dad too and I know how some people will say "if your parents die you'll miss them" and all that bullshit and I'm going to say umm.. NO thanks but no thanks I don't think I'll miss verbal abuse.

Do you know what my favorite thing my mom ever said me was? When I was 12 and I wanted to go sleep over at my friends house for their birthday party my mom said "Why do you want to go sleep there? You just want to have sex with their dad don't you because you want to be a prostitute" Ahh preteen memories. And she asks Steve's mom why Ashley and I don't like her... seriously.

My parents, are just pieces of garbage. I wish when me and Ashley were little we were adopted by real parents instead of having these idiots raise us.

Are your parents similar or worse? How do you deal with them? Let's start a support group lol.

What a way to commemorate 100 posts lol I actually wanted to do something more interesting but this hasn't been a good week and I just had to bitch out lol, so I guess I'll save it for the next post.

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The Self Righteous Parent

Everyone deals with people like this
There's no reasoning with that person because they just either don't believe you or they have such strong beliefs of their own that their perception of the situation is so warped that their way of thinking is not straight on and doesn't make sense

Steve's mom has been here since the 26th of December (as I've mentioned before) and she's caused so many fucking problems already. I don't know if she has a mental issue or she's just fucking inconsiderate (probably both) but something is definitely not right there.

For two days now she's been freaking out at him for failing his cbsa exam (border services) and not getting a job (this was like a year ago) and he is still going to school. She keeps ridiculing him for not staying in university and said to him if he doesn't get the job he's going for in February then he has to quit school in Canada and live in Korea, wtf.

"Everyone else has kids who have finished university and are looking for jobs what are you doing? wasting your time with your friends"

Its not like he isn't trying to get a job I mean he's a student at JIBC, he's also applying for jobs and works part-time. Its not that he's fucking lazy I think he is entitled a few days off, especially on his birthday (it was his birthday on new years day).

I have to say, if you don't get a job it doesn't mean you have to move halfway across the world to study english (he's fucking fluent lol) and compared to Canada, Korea is probably not the best place to study english, probably engrish.

Plus you don't move someone halfway across the world because they didn't get a job, maybe if they were addicted to drugs and you want them to go to rehab and not have access to the environment they were in wtf lol.

"I'm your parent and you should do what I say"

Every time a friend of mine tells me that their parent has said this I get angry. Just because you are a parent doesn't mean you are a good one. Anybody can be a parent (for example a 12 year old girl that got accidentally pregnant) but not everyone is a good parent.

To me Steve's mom has the maturity of a 15 year old girl, and if she doesn't get what she wants she calls daddy (aka Steve's dad lol) She was never ready to have kids and still isn't.

I have to be honest, Steve isn't the best human in the world lol, his parents have warped his mind a little bit but he is slowly adapting to the culture here but I know some things in his mind will never change or will slowly change. If you don't adapt to the world then you will be the outcast

"I'm your parent so you have to give me money and I have to live with you when I am old"

I'm serious about this: If your parent ever tells you that you owe them something (money, making you let them live with you) then they are pieces of shit. I'm fucking serious, you don't owe them ANYTHING. If your parent only had you to take care of them when they're older what does that say? basically they had you for their own selfish needs. Its not a right/obligation to have kids, just because you can it doesn't always mean you should.

Somebody told me: In Korea, before you get married you have to live with your husbands parents for a month or two so their mom can teach you how to be a good housewife. Because the man has to take care of the family by providing the money.

So I blame his mom for his faults LOL

I told Steve if his mom continues to say these things then I'm going to have to ask her to leave and not come back to the house and if she refuses then I'll call the cops. At this point and time Steve is ok with that.

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