Gist of it basically
How I still feel even months after the break up. Despite what some people say, 9Gag can be quite insightful sometimes LOL and these memes totally related to how I felt and still feel.
I felt so lonely for 6 years even when he was laying beside me
When most of my friends told me they didn't like him and I told him about it he got so upset about it and called them "cunts" and "bitches" and he would basically make me choose between them or him. At the time I was living with him so wtf was I supposed to do? Plus they didn't like little things he did like ask me to pay for stuff when we went to go eat out together, or call me fat and ugly in front of them... WOW why the fuck did I date him for so long? Lol I'm glad they're still here for me after all this time :) but according to him "it's just a fucking joke"
And so, he basically isolated me most of the time and I didn't realize it until we broke up. When I hung out with friends he would always keep tabs on me and shit and soon enough I just had a handful of friends I could count on but that was dwindling as well... Things definitely changed when I went to work and made new friends. I guess because he didn't know them he couldn't keep tabs on me in a way, but would constantly offer to pick me up/drop me off even though I live close by but the thing is - I wasn't doing anything shady, I was upfront and honest but I guess I couldn't say the same for him.
And so, he basically isolated me most of the time and I didn't realize it until we broke up. When I hung out with friends he would always keep tabs on me and shit and soon enough I just had a handful of friends I could count on but that was dwindling as well... Things definitely changed when I went to work and made new friends. I guess because he didn't know them he couldn't keep tabs on me in a way, but would constantly offer to pick me up/drop me off even though I live close by but the thing is - I wasn't doing anything shady, I was upfront and honest but I guess I couldn't say the same for him.
And yes he did break up with me for another girl as I mentioned before in the previous post and he's chasing after her. Although, friends who work with him have told me she has a "friends with benefits" relationship with some other guy but otherwise, if he wasn't around Steve and her would hook up, they first told me she wasn't interested but apparently that changed. Most girls like the chase, it gives them confidence knowing that some guy likes them, so I think she'll give in eventually if she hasn't already, it sort of happened to a friend of mine. She wasn't looking to date this guy and was creeped out by him, eventually she agreed to go on a date with him to get it over with and tell him no but then she ended up dating him for like 5 years LOL.
I have no idea wtf he's been telling her, but apparently he told her that I think he broke up with me because Steve and her were dating. Which I KNOW is not true. Because he barely had the time to do things for his parents let alone have time to secretly date someone else. So I'm like 100% sure he's told her other shit about either himself or me that is not true at all. Our mutual friend told me that he's been saying weird things to "match" her so it seems like they're compatible so our friend is like ... wtf, she said its hilarious and awkward because he's trying too hard and it makes some situations awkward.
Even now we hang out and still talk here and there but he's keeping it secret from all his co-workers because he's scared that they'll tell her and she'll lose interest or something. I told him - "what's the point in being friends still if you want to keep it a secret? Its obvious you don't want to be friends then"
I have no idea wtf he's been telling her, but apparently he told her that I think he broke up with me because Steve and her were dating. Which I KNOW is not true. Because he barely had the time to do things for his parents let alone have time to secretly date someone else. So I'm like 100% sure he's told her other shit about either himself or me that is not true at all. Our mutual friend told me that he's been saying weird things to "match" her so it seems like they're compatible so our friend is like ... wtf, she said its hilarious and awkward because he's trying too hard and it makes some situations awkward.
Even now we hang out and still talk here and there but he's keeping it secret from all his co-workers because he's scared that they'll tell her and she'll lose interest or something. I told him - "what's the point in being friends still if you want to keep it a secret? Its obvious you don't want to be friends then"
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I randomly decided to give Tinder another go.. a lot of my friends have been meeting really nice guys lately... so why not? I'm actually talking to somebody right now (His name is Danny). We've been talking non-stop for almost a week now, we haven't met up yet and I don't really plan on doing it any time soon... He seems like a nice guy, a little weird which isn't always a bad thing LOL (doesn't eat veggies... that's weird to me but works out like crazy lol) The ironic thing is... he plays roller hockey... in the same league that Steve plays in... in the same division..
A friend of mine who does tarot card readings (quite accurately most of the time) told me, the next guy I meet, if Steve and him run into each other, they're going to fight... and at the time I didn't meet Danny so I was like, there's no way that they'll meet but then after a while we were talking and then it suddenly clicked. I don't even know if I'm going to date him or not so we'll have to wait and see.
Plus many months ago he told me I'd get with a guy who was a student who was also a professional? Not sure how that works but I found out that he is a student, not really sure what he is studying (I didn't feel like grilling him at the moment)
We shall see how this progresses.... I'll have to meet Danny in person to see how we click.
