I started school at a private college (which is a reason why I started in August) and nearly didn't get in, the program I'm in is a 6 month program to be a medical laboratory assistant.
I chose to stop my other schooling because well, it was just taking WAY too long and I just can't stand being at home any more. I seriously think that if I stay here for another 3 years I will commit suicide and honestly this is a great stepping stone into something else if I choose to upgrade later on.
So far the school is great, I've made lots of friends and I found out that I'm the weirdo of the class LOL. This month though is probably gonna be one of the toughest months for the program, we're learning lots of medical terminology and anatomy and physiology (which we haven't started yet) and basically there's a test every day so my brain is fried at the moment lol.
So there goes the summer lol.
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I had a discussion with Steve about the future and I told him that I will most likely abandon my parents, probably right after I get a job, hopefully after this program.
I feel like our relationship is beyond rebuild/repair, only because they're not willing to admit the mistakes they made and continue to make and them believing that everyone else is the problem besides themselves.
I told him that I do worry about if/or when the time came when we got married or had kids and I honestly don't want them to be a part of it. I'd worry about my mom causing a scene at my wedding and her spreading lies to Steve's family (like she tried to in the past) or call me a slut while I'm walking down the aisle in Vietnamese so she can snicker with her friends, like at Ashley's wedding.
Or if we had kids I would not want either of my parents to be around them. I can't trust my mom around any kids, she has no sense of right or wrong, even when she drives she almost hits people with the car and she blames them for "getting too close." It's just not happening with my kids, I'm not willing to take the risk and Steve understands (or so he says lol) I know his mom is not going to understand, she can't understand that kids can hate their parents.
My parents can't understand that either, both my parents and Steve's mom share the same mentality about it. Basically (I'm sure I've said this somewhere in a previous post) they believe that Money=Love the more you spend the more you love your kids, it doesn't matter if you're abusive or neglectful, in their eyes they think they're great parents, and sadly its something my parents and Steve's mom share.
I don't hate my entire family, just my parents, they're just not supportive or anything. I see how successful our cousins are and its because their parents actually tried to help them be successful in the future.
(had a tough morning lol its why I'm about them)
So that's that, moving on.
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I'm hoping to make at least 1 post per weekend, I have tons of stuff to talk about and share but SCHOOL! lol. I have an exam on Monday but I gotta get some motivation to post stuff lol or at least pre-write some posts so I can just update this blog lol.
If you're wondering what's happening with Steve and his crazy family, That needs its own post LOL. Honestly there's a lot of weird shit and a lot of shit to talk about lol.
So again, so sorry about the neglect!
I'm also thinking of renaming this blog, only because I kinda feel like Style Pop is kind of irrelevant to what I'm doing now lol, maybe I'll just move over to a new blog :)
Thanks for the read!
